After Fed Courts and Before Methods of Information Gathering

The great thing about a blog is that i get to go into as much detail as i want, and it feels like there is something listenting. As much as i loved my therapist (and i did, he was wonderful, there is no better feeling than getting to talk about yourself for an hour a week without worrying about having to listen to another's feelings or worry that you are dominating the conversation, especially when that people not only listens to you talk about whatever you want but validates your feelings and tells you "of course its normal to feel that way"), you couldn't to into the level of detail that each subject could bring up in your mind. For example, i was thinking today that i might like to include the list of songs that brian put on the first valantines day cd that he made for me. then i would would want to include what what of his friends wrote about his taste in music. That would be way too much information, and no one (not even Ari) would care what songs brian put on a cd for me. as i caved to the need to give voice the thoughts in my head, i would notice that the person on whom i choose to bestow this honor was not interested or was uncomfortable, so i would stop telling them, or tell them anyway but feel bad and weak for giving into my emtions. then the telling would not have the cathartic effect that i needed it to and i would have freaked out yet another friend, and would worry that i had freaded out another friend, and vow to keep the emotional disaster that is my inner reality to myself from that point forward, which would make me feel alone and out of control. So even if no one reads the post, which might never be created since it would require me to actually figure out the names of all the songs on that cd, i feel like i am telling someone all the details that i desperately need to share without actually boring someone to death with the resitation and causing myself untold emotional stress. yeah for blogs.